When Will Cupid Strike

Andy recently posted a spread on his blog here which is basically, about what, when & how of "when will I meet the one".

1. Why you've not found love/partner.

Ten of Swords:

This card has appeared for me more often than any other card in a love reading. Basically this card talks about ending,  completion & you have hit the rock bottom. Its been longer than 3yrs now & somehow, mentally I'm still getting over it. 

This card can literally mean feeling like a victim. Although I do admit my mistakes when I look back & talk about my past, I do admit my mistakes & I did learn a lot from them. Somehow I am still not ready to get up, pull the swords out of my back & move on. I have to get out of this self-pity like approach in love.

2. How to overcome any issues in card one.

Queen of Pentacles:

This Queen, unlike the Queen of Wands (Fire) is very serious about relationships. she does not believe in short-term flings or just flirting with anyone. She is the woman who would protect her King, make a home with him, serve him breakfast every morning & make babies with him. 

This Queen may also be a woman, other than myself, who can help me with overcoming my fear of "failing" my next relationship. I usually do not make friends with Earth signs, although I have lot of Earth in me, but this woman can be an example for me, how to make a relationship successful.

3. What is the most positive thing you can do now.

Four of Pentacles:

This is the card I used to describe my ex actually. This man in this picture actually often reminded me of him, because in his case I did just that, held on TOO tightly. 

This card is all about holding on tight. Since its a Four number & also Pentacles, we can relate it to material security & stability too. This is exactly what I am doing right now, & letting matters lose as well at the same time, because I believe I sometimes try to be too much in control of circumstances ..

Both How to & what to do are pentacles. I see that financial matters and stability, more practical approach is needed. Its really hard for me with Venus in Gemini but I have lot of Earth in me, so I just need to let loose.

4. Who is the partner for you.

Nine of Pentacles:

Interestingly, when I put y story or my goals in cards, Nine of Pentacles is always the card I put before 10 of Cups and 10 of Pentacles, these two cards being the ultimate goal of mine in terms of relationships. I want to be happy and care-free and financially well-off on my own, forming my own individual identity before I step in to a relationship. Now the same card is representing the man for me. This person is someone on-my-own type, which is BTW my type. This man is more a self-reliant type & is possibly enjoying the fruits of his labours right now & one thing he misses is Love.

Another reference that is made with this card is though, that of a person who is happily single. This actually worries me a bit, because when you are under the influence of Nine of Pentacles card, you just do not want to be in a relationship.

5. Where you will meet.

Nine of Cups:

The only place I can think when I look at this card is an exhibition. The Cups suit is also related to family & emotions, so someone in family is presenting something, may be a friend's celebration or something. 

6. When you will meet.

Emperor

The only Major arcana card in my spread which is easy to pin point the time since Emperor is associated with Aries. Sun will be moving to Aries in next month. Lets see what happens...

SUMMARY: 

There is the dominant suit of Pentacles, so despite the Nine of Pentacles as "HIM" I'm still thinking if it will be something long-term. 

I welcome opinions!!

Mother issues & resolving them!

For all those people who have an interest in astrology, The Moon in our charts sometimes represents Mother  & a Moon-Pluto & Moon-Mars Opposition is a classic aspect for "Mother issues". The Moon-Pluto opposition can be explained as:

The frame of reference you choose to portray your relationship with your mother will play a decisive role in all of your close personal relationships

& Moon-Mars opposition as:

Part of this aggressive and assertive nature may be rooted in your relationship with your mother. Childhood feelings may have been denied through a lack of emotional contact, or through having to submit to an oppressive home - The Strange House

 So I have these both oppositions. I usually draw a daily card for love reading for the day. Its mainly for practising & enhancing my understanding of deck in terms of relationships & love readings.

For last three days, I have been drawing The Moon card daily. Just now when I was looking into it, I found a website that relates The Moon card to Mother Issues & all of sudden I was reminded of the article I read on a website just three days ago, which was about our attraction towards emotionally unavailable people mainly because we have been deprived of a fathers or mothers love in childhood.
Then it just hit me.

I have already ponder over the fact that I have a difficult relationship with my mother, my chart confirms it, & so does my reading of my life. This relationship alone has effected more areas of my life than any other thing ever. I try hard to reach a comfortable stance with her but somehow does not happen at all. She is a double Scorpio with a Day number 4 & Life Path 9.

So enough with the story now, I pulled a one card to ask, what should I do to improve my relationship with my mother.

This card is number 20, Judgement card from the Major arcana. Judgement card is the card of re-birth, starting over, letting the past go & rest in past. Astrologically this card is ruled by Pluto & The Moon  corresponds with Moon. So basically its the Moon-Pluto aspect here just intensified in my reading.  This card also represents a calling, an awakening that I need to wake up & address all those issues that are lying buried in my past. When you understand a problem & admit that you have a problem, 70% of it is already solved just there.

Another meaning associated with this card is absolution. There is a need to let go of the past, forgive each other & forget whatever happened.

The problem is, I'm willing to do that, but may be she is not even though I'm the one suffering this more than her!!!

God bless her!

The Four Modes Spread by Marry K. Greer

I was just reading "Understanding the Tarot Court" by Marry K. Greer & Tom Little when I looked at this spread given in the book.

The Aeclectic Tarot forum explains the spread like this:

Next we visit the four modes of Tarot - the Court Cards, which answer the "Who" of a reading - the parts of yourself or people around you that are part of the issue; the Minor Arcana Pips (numbers 2-10) that describe the "What?" - the situation that the Seeker is in; The Major Arcana that answer the question "Why?", addressing the life lesson for the Seeker in the situation they are facing; and the Aces, which answer the "Where?" of the situation - the elemental world, realm or sphere where the action is taking place.

For this spread you have to basically separate the deck in four parts.
1) Court cards
2) Number cards/Minor Arcana Pips (from 2-10) of each suit
3)  Major Arcana from 0-21
4) The four Aces

Like the text I copied from Aeclectic Tarot's review of the book, the court card tells you what court card you are acting like. I didn't pre-choose the card because I wanted to see if I'm being myself (Queen of Wands) or not.

The Minor Arcana Pips card tells you what situation you are in & what you are doing in that situation

The Major Arcana card tells you why you are in this situation & what you need to express/what your lesson here in this situation is

The Ace tells you in which realm or area are you facing the situation & why you are doing what you are doing.

1) King of Swords: Some words I can really relate to for this court cards are "logical, head-over-heart, controlling, thinker (sometimes over-thinking) , wants crystal clear view of situation, cold, detached, trying too hard to dominate, & above all, blunt (look at that sword).
So I agree, I exhibit all these qualities these days.More negative than positive *sigh*

2) So whats happening is, that I'm delusional. This is the word I associate with this card. This card is also the card of day-dreaming & I'm falling for it. Instead of taking some practical decisions, or actions,I rather sit & imagine what it can be. There is also A LOT I want. & I want it all at once. That is why I have no idea which one to work towards first. At the same time, I'm so tempted by all the options I have, or I think I have, that I'm clearly careless towards what I'm losing. This explains the cold/detached King of Swords attitude.

3) The Hierophant explains why its happening. I'm a rebel. I always walk against the current, not that it ever serves me right. But the lesson here is to get real & understand that the path less travelled, well, there is a reason its less travelled. I should stick to more traditional roles. See how I'm exhibiting the role of a King, the alpha, the master, while I'm a woman & TBH I was expecting a female court card at-least  I need to fit to my role. I know this sounds too traditional, but hey, that's what the lesson is here right.

4) The realm is that of emotions, feelings, love & relationships, also family & matters related to heart. See how there is a lot of Blue in my spread, which represents feelings. The "What" card is also of Cups, mean in terms of whatever is happening, at least I'm on track. The Hirophant is Earth, boxed in with Water on both sides, thus, the message of Hierophant is even intensified. The only culprit here is Swords (Air). Air and Water just create Storms.

So here, I'm taking things (options) too rationally & logically. There is a need to conform to traditional values and even seek advice from someone who can help.

This spread actually gave me a lot to wonder about.

Try it & share how it feels!

TarotScope for February 2013

Every month I pull six cards, for Love, Home/family & work/Finances
For this month I have:

Tarotscope for month of Feb 2013

Love & Romance:

Hierophant + Strength 
Hierophant in love position actually suggests commitment or traditional relationship values like marriage, loyalty etc. The Strength on other hand is lust & physical passion. These two cards initially looked very opposite to me. Only later after pondering over this for sometimes I realised that Hierophant is also a teacher or an advisor. A person who helps you understand the deeper meaning of something. This person may or may not be a Taurus sign or one with a strong Taurus in his/her chart. The Strength is soft-control or being tolerant & compassionate towards others.
So this is a person who is teaching me to be tolerant & compassionate towards others. This person is probably a strong supporter of traditional values & a belief system.
After meditating on the cards for few seconds I have come across a statement which relaxes me (It happens when I know that I know what the combo is telling me). Our traditional values tell us that women are naturally more soft & compassionate than men. This combo here is telling me that by being soft, it doesn't mean I'm out of control or giving up. It simply means what I'm unable to handle with force & aggression  I should be able to handle the same with love & kindness.

Home & Family:

Six of Cups + Page of Pentacles
Nostalgia/childhood memories + A student

I like the way Page looks closely at the coin, as if observing it too closely. This combo here tells me that there is something I need to learn from my childhood memories. I have some issues with family this month, I can already see situation worsening sometimes in this month. It simply tells me that I have to look back & see where the problem lies, in my childhood.

Work & Finances:

Seven of Pentacles + Ace of Pentacles

This combo is exactly from Tarotscope for November in same position. At that time I was offered an intern ship at a bank right after my exams. I can tell that something smaller, like a bottom-level job or a new job which doesn't pay as well as my expectations (since its an Ace) but there is a potential for increase. The energy of Ace is very short-lived. I must grasp the opportunity. The Seven of Pentacles however suggests there will be sometimes before the opportunity arrives.